Love or what?

"Okay so, have you ever been in a situation where you love someone but you aren't sure?"

"Well, firstly if that's the case, I don't think its love. Because use this word itself carries lots of meanings"

"I don't understand. There's a situation given and whatever you said isn't an explanation for it!"

"I know. But give it a second thought. Make sure that the thing you're calling as love is actually love in the first place."

"Hmm, got you now."

"Great! Now, what's the actual situation?"

"Yeah so, there's something like a craving for warmth or a wish to feel a sense of belonging from a person but you are confused that is it is love or not!?"

"A person in specific?"

"Don't know. It's like no one has treated you that way before and when this specific person does certain things, you feel good and don't wanna resist."

"Okay so it's more like, no matter whoever has been at that person's place, the situation would still have been the same!"

"Yeah! Like it's not about a particular person but the behavior I'm getting. It's more of a 'me feeling'"

"Maybe not a 'me' feeling but the incompleteness you have within."

"Exactly! I wanted to feel the completeness in myself first. I wanted to be enough for myself and enjoy my space and heal thru! But now all this... I'm confused. Why am I getting something i don't want and I'm still going on with it?"

"So this is probably why you think you might be in love. But hold on, you're not getting something you don't want. It's that you're getting something you want but at the wrong time. And this is what's confusing you!"

"Probably yes."

"So, are you willing to continue?"

"Not sure though! But yeah I'm going with it and not hoping any good for the future."

"Or maybe you're not wanting a future with it?"

"You're not wrong but neither completely right."

"See it's the age where such things happen and it's fine to be confused about feelings. Just don't get too intense that you're unable to move on even when you want to discontinue."

"Ahhh thanks. Let it be. It's not something I REALLY want but obviously something I'm lacking in life and maybe that's why I ain't resisting anything."

"Hmm... it's not love but something kinda close to it. Make sure you don't end up hurting yourself or other people knowingly. Make everything clear at the start."

"Sure!"

How was your day?

Hey, why not have a little talk right here?

So,

It was a tough day,

and the things that happened were not bearable for your heart, right?

But you're still here, telling yourself to smile and keep up with life as if nothing happened.

Do you think it's fine?

Do you think it's fine to lie to yourself?

Some people will advise you to fake it because no one cares right?

But you have to care! Cause the World is too cold to expect anything from, but you my love are the only one who knows what's going on inside you.

Isn't it you who's trying to find comfort in people and ends up getting hurt?

You know why that's happening?

It's 'cause there's a void within you and you're expecting anyone else to fill it.

Do you think you're not capable enough to fill it yourself?

You are! There's nothing you can't do.

You gotta feel complete yourself first cause the only pure kind of love is self-love.

Wait, have you been told that thinking of yourself is called selfishness?

Well if that's the case, know it isn't.

If not you then who else is gonna love you?

If not you then who else is gonna think of you?

You don't have to stop loving yourself for the sake of others.

You might be thinking about how to fill the void right?

Okay, it's not something you just say and happen.

It's a process (yeah a long one)

But you have to cherish the little things in life (they're not ACTUALLY little though)

Well this is hard done than said

But atleast you can believe in yourself right?

Time carries some magic, if not today, you'll be happy one day for sure.

You're not okay today, so don't act like you are because one day you'll be so good that you won't even need to say it!

(Be a believer, that's the key)

Well, your day, that's still hurting you and you're constantly trying to escape.

Moving out of a toxic environment is not that easy!

And running away from it won't solve the problem either.

But that thing has ruined your every day for so long right?

Here, observe closely 

You have been trying to escape from things daily but the problems still come in your way...

How about facing the things you're afraid of?

You haven't tried it yet I know

You'll obviously get panicked at first but your fears are in your mind only

Once you face them, 

they seem like nothing but a task you gotta fulfill!

Okay, and I'm not saying that you have to stay in a toxic environment!

Once you face the fears and win at them,

Slowly you'll get out of it!

You might have some more bad days ahead

'Cause things don't change overnight.

As I said, it's a process and you have to be a believer!

Lastly, don't be hopeless on your bad days cause the good days aren't far!

So now, tell yourself that you're going to give your SELF all the love it deserves and not going to fake it until you actually make it!

Not sure if I made you feel even a little better but all I can say is, once you start the process of self-love, the control is in your hands. It's never too late to start a new journey. Just go for it!

Well, you're a part of the universe and hence, from the immense amount of love the universe contains, there's a share for you too!

Now, bye!

Start your journey, will meet you sometime and have a conversation about your day:)