"Yeah say what happened now?"
"No, actually i was asking that how are you? I mean it's been long since..."
"No formalities, please. Directly come to the point as you always do! Why are you being so formal?"
"This is the point itself. Hadn't seen you in a while so thought of asking if you're okay."
"I'm concerned if you are okay!? You never behave like this. See even if it's a big matter, I'll try to help you figure it out. No need of all this alright?"
"Do you seriously think I'm that selfish? Can't i care about people?"
"I think you are the one who needs to be cared for. People can wait."
"Are you THAT satisfied with life that you don't need anyone to talk about your problems or care for you or you don't have any problems at all?"
"No, but they're minor problems. Can be solved easily."
"Still, don't you sometimes feel low or feel like not talking to anyone? Or maybe wish that you had someone to share your emotions with?"
"Why you never thought about this earlier? When you directly jump into talking about your issues without even asking if I'm okay? Why don't you think this way when you start arguing about YOUR problems as if they're mine without even thinking if I'm in a mood to talk or if I'm stuck in a bad situation myself?"
"Are you mad at me?"
"No, but you don't have to fake this formality for a day just to ensure that someday i don't stop talking to you."
"Since when haven't we talked?"
"I don't know, it's been months i guess"
"And didn't you think of checking out on me even once in all these months?"
"No, because i know you yourself rush to me whenever you're in a problem, so there's no need to check out on you! I thought you were having a good life!"
"Ah, and i was thinking of you all the time. I had very difficult situations in between but never contacted you because i was afraid of losing you. I was afraid if letting you heal me makes me a selfish person. I was afraid that will i ever be able to pay you all this back?"
"Then why did you text me today? Is it that you're confused about this now?"
"No, i was confused till the past few days. I thought I'll never talk to you because I'm not even in a condition to ask if you're okay. I take all the care from you but give nothing back from my side."
"Hey, listen up! I'm glad you gave it a thought and texted me today but there's no need to complicate things. Sometimes you just need to let people love you. It's okay if you can't pay the love back right after because the people who really love you don't expect it either! They just love you unconditionally. And if someday you find yourself in a situation to ask about their well-being and care for them, then don't back off. But until you don't heal yourself fully, it's not necessary to push yourself to think of all this."
"Yeah but..."
"No 'buts' now. You can come to me anytime alright? Don't be so formal, at least with me! I'm always here."
"Okay, but..umm...just one time, please!
How're you? Is everything okay in life? Not asking with the intent of paying you back but just wanted to know."
"Alright! I'm good and life's going fine! Thanks for asking."
"I had a question"
"Ask"
"You said that people who love us, don't expect anything in return but if you love me, why didn't the thought of my well-being bother you?"
"Because i thought i know you well. I never imagined that you would be thinking this way about me. I always consider myself as someone whose duty is to help you heal, and i thought that whenever you are in a problem, you come to me. But now i know that you don't. I was glad that we were not having a conversation because i thought the reason behind it is your happiness. Now I've added one more task to my duty!"
"And what's that task?"
"To check on you."
"Isn't it too formal?"
"No, because your happiness is all that matters to me."
"You'll always be special to me."
"Glad to hear!"
***
Sometimes you meet people who love you without any expectations, but due to self-doubt, you often push them away. You don't actually want them to stay away from you but you get the guilt of not loving them back equally. Sometimes, not talking about your issues might weaken your bonds with your close ones. So it's better to discuss what you feel and expect from a person. There will always be a better way and solution to it!
"Sometimes, you need to let people love you."
